Tuesday, April 29, 2014

This whole post is about my baby.

Little Macy is so close to walking! She has been pulling up for months, walking around things, pushing her walker/toy thing, and movin' and groovin' all over the place. We've been trying to get her to walk, take a few steps at least, for the last couple of weeks. In the last few days she has climbed our stairs multiple times, but no steps on her own. I've been by her side for a couple days straight, I leave for a couple hours and guess what?! She takes her first few steps for Daddy. I am super excited he was able to see this, but pretty sad I didn't. I know in the big scheme things it really isn't that big of a deal, but today I'm pretty bummed, but also SO thankful for Macy and Mike and all they bring to my life.

Although I missed the first few steps I am pretty proud that her favorite word is "Mom." Not "Mama" like a lot of almost 11 month olds, but a very enunciated "MOM." She also likes to say "Yum," when she is hungry, "Woah," as she pretends to jump, the way she, in a high pitch, whispers "Dada," she loves to talk about her cousin "Lanie," and when the dog that lives behind us barks, she rushes over to the back door and makes a "Woof" like sound. She also copy-cat laughs, if she hears a laugh sure enough she does it. Today Mike left me a voicemail, he laughed, and I hear her in the background "ha ha ha."

It's not all sunshine, she is super sassy and independent. She already throws pretty intense tantrums. She doesn't like being told what to do, funny, like I'm so bossy at this stage. If you try to help Macy she pushes you away, if she doesn't want to drink or eat she will put on her sassy pants and push whatever it is away with lots of attitude. She learns really quickly, especially the naughty things. She knows to throw things on the floor, to work her hardest at flipping over just as you're trying to put a clean diaper on her. She also hates getting dressed. We've decided to let her smash some fingers because she just won't give in on playing with cabinet doors. (I joke that I have a pretty hands off style of parenting, I'm definitely not a helicopter mom and I'm working on how I'd like to balance it all.) Macy likes to cuddle, she gives great hugs and awesome kisses, but she isn't the cuddle when hurt kind of girl. She likes to get back in there and try again, gotta love her intensity.

Last realization I had today...I was driving by myself blasting Let it Go from the Frozen soundtrack. I love God's plan. He gave me a girl first because I'm suited to mother a girl. I really am.

Ok, The End.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

What a day!

Today was a rough day. My 10 month old tested me to my limits today. She threw fits, she wouldn't nap, she pooped and it got everywhere (head to toe and all over OUR clothes), and she was just super fussy. I had lots of tears as well to be honest. I think part of the reason I am so emotional about it all is that I am so thankful for my little girl. This is the hardest thing I've every done, being a mom. She tests me and drives me crazy, but man oh man I love this little lady. One of the things that I struggle with is she isn't a great napper, she doesn't nap in her crib. She has to be in her car seat or she has to be held. It is my fault, I never made her learn. Here is my biggest struggle with all of this...is it worth it so that I get to cuddle and snuggle my little peanut? Day to day I don't think so, but big picture I do. I never expected to be able to have little Macy and what if I don't ever have another kid? These might be the only 10 month old snuggles I get! No, I don't get anything done during her nap time (if she takes one), but is that what is really important? It is so hard to know what to do as a parent...vaccines or not, crib or co-sleeping, formula or breastfeeding, stay at home or go to work, cry it out or coddle, and on and on and on. After a long day of many tears for both Mommy and baby, I reflect so that I can remember how completely blessed I am! God has been so good to me.

And on that note, let me just show you how precious my little lady is when she isn't fussing, playing in the toilet, or being the most stubborn baby I've ever met!
Happy Easter!

Christ has Risen! Be joyful!

Miss Sassy Pants 
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